from sad to happy and back...

I'm talking about music here...

I was riding on the whole emo bandwagon the past couple of years. All that of course, was very much because of Ardex, my friend. He was all into giving me music and burning CDs for me left and right. He's really special like that. He was also the guy who introduced me to The Get Up Kids and Daphne Loves Derby and for that I'm sooo grateful.

At the beginning of this year though, I pulled a 360 and started pumping out dance hits left and right. I can't say my Sennheiser's have seen as much action compared to this year. Plus, there's the new Scissor Sisters album...not Ta-Dah, the unreleased one and of course, who can forget the adorable giant, Mika.

I've changed my tastes again these past few days. I'm getting back to the whole Indie scene and I've been a busy-busy bee getting albums of the iTunes store left and right. I've reconnected with Switchfoot (I know, not entirely Indie...but once upon a time...) and other cool bands like Anberlin, Eisley, Emery, Saosin, Circa Survive, Interpol, Arctic Monkeys, Guster and Under0ath...to name a few. I'm also treading the thin line between indie rock and Christian rock (although the line gets more blurred with each passing day) with reckless abandon. Seems like a lot of the new up and comers just happen to be full of faith (to say the least) but they definitely sound great. I'm also crushing on Jimmy Eat World again although I'm still hurt that they abandoned the whole emo scene, but the scene's still healthy. With replacements like Taking Back Sunday, Dashboard Confessional et al, who could go wrong right?

Like I said...I'm happily sad right now...

drowning in shallow waters...

For those who check my blog from time to time (I love you! Hahahahaha...) you might have noticed I've not been updating as conscientiously these past few days. I went on a mini-sabbatical to get my head on straight again. I've been fighting with bouts of depression and general melancholia.

Surprisingly enough, I found the answers I sought in music. My music to be exact. In my eternal mission (fueled by outrageous amounts of zeal) to fix my iTunes playlists, I've come across a lot of tracks long forgotten. First I saw my old Christian Rock songs, so I thought God is mocking my incompetence. Then I unearthed my indie bootlegs and what-nots, so I thought...yeah, independence...run away...DO NOT CONFORM! Finally it hit me how much emo I've been intravenously subjecting myself to these past few months. Could this have been the source of my then "unexplained" sadness? Are these songs wired to make us hoplessly suicidal?

My epiphany came to me in the form of a question...whay the hell do we have so many classifications of music? We have referenced and cross-referenced songs over and over it's as if we are hell bent on making it nigh-impossible for anyone to appreciate it...specially ourselves.

WHATEVER HAPPENED TO: "THIS SOUNDS GOOD, I LIKE IT." AND "THAT'S AWFUL. THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL I'M GONNA LISTEN TO THAT!"?

Then it hit me...all the complexities in our lives are our own machinations. We contiously cage ourselves, limit our strides. I have become what I loathed the most...sheep...FUCKING SHEEP! I have inundated myself with the tenets of society that I have, in turn, smothered my spirit. I have made it hard for me to draw upon anything attached to my uniqueness. I have become lost in the crowd...a fucking wallflower!

So I've decided. To hell with all my problems, they're chains holding me to the mundane and they are my own creation! I refuse to give in to society's definition of success. I am my own person. I'm sick and tired of feeling inept. I choose to be imperfect, to be human. Neither God nor society will dictate my path. I revel in my personal route to enlightenment. As long as I hurt no one, I will be fine.

I'm happily sad and incomplete right now...pain, after all, reminds me I am still alive.

"holy" crap! pun intended...

I've been fussing over my esteemed iTunes playlists again (yeah, I'm anal about my music!) and I've stumbled onto a very disturbing (?) and surprising fact...I HAVE TONS OF CHRISTIAN ROCK MUSIC!!!

I mean I don't have anything against the genre per se but I'm in a very gray area right now regarding my faith. It doesn't make me feel dirty (hell no!) nor guilty to have this kind of music. I was just really surprised...I had no idea I even had these tracks. After I got rid of my Hillsong CDs (tons of them!!!) I really thought that was it.

I feel a little hypocritical listening to these tracks now, but their quality is undeniable. I still like these songs and have decided not to delete them. This is another thing to ponder on...at a later time.

WouldJesusDiscriminate.com billboards defaced in Indiana...

I really think there is no point trying to build a better relationship with people who act like THIS.

Thanks to Towleroad.com for continuing to bring this to the attention of as many people as they could. I hope people everywhere could simply see how their behavior only makes the movement stronger...

a life of regret...

In the tenets of Bushido, it is a sin for a samurai to feel regret. There is also this long discussion about differentiating remorse from regret.From the western perspective, "regret is a posion that kills a person"...or something like that. I really can't remember anymore and besides, eastern philisophy has always been dear to me.

The point, ladies and gentlemen, is, that in the universal context, regret is something we should strike from our persona. Regret is defined as (1/v) to mourn the loss of (2/v)to be very sorry for [m-w.com]. At first glimpse, it seems that regret is a very natural thing to feel. Then why must we strive not to "regret" anything?

In my moments of introspection (aka: any moment I am alone...LOL) I can't help but think back on the 22 years I've lived my life. No matter how hard I try, regret seems to be at the forefront of my thoughts always. I daresay it's not a healthy thing to do, ponder on past failures and what-ifs that is...but I do more than just learn from my mistakes, I relive them everyday. I'm not one to preach about how this makes me monumentally better than the lot of you, it just makes me a person who lives his life smothered by the shadow of regret.

I have also come to conclude that (in my case at least) regret always comes hand in hand with envy and more than a reasonable amount of self-doubt.

For example, I had this friend (yes, past tense...and no, he isn't dead, were just not friends anymore) Keith back in high school. He loves rock, and not just the run of the mill rock that the average person likes, he likes the rare, undeground and bootleg variety. I'll even venture as far as considering him cool. He's also quite easy on the eyes, except for tobacco teeth, which is easily remedied nowadays. He was also born into a charmed life. With a well-off chinese business man for a father and a well-payed financial expert for a mother. I could say he has it all, but he doesn't. He isn't smart...AT ALL. I'm referring to the genric kind of smarts here, more of linguistics, arithmetic and sciences. But does it matter, no, I believe it doesn't.

I, on the other hand, was born to a middle class family. My parents have spent their fortune and spent all succeeding years working their bones to dust to send off three children to respectable schools. I used to be a pop-tart but I'm now proud to say that I enjoy better, more sophisticated genres of music. I'm fat, brown skinned and have long unruly and wavy hair. Yeah, I'd classify myself as below avearge in the looks department. I may be a depressed idiot, but I'm a realist at heart and I don't live a jaded life. I got top grades in elementary but vetnured into more social endeavors in high school hence the average grades. I was ok in college, not at par with most my classmates but I always got through everything with minimum exertion. Yet, I still consider myself an intellectual albeit an intellectuall without credentials...the worst kind if you ask me.

Now, let's compare notes. I took a five-year engineering course with a one term thesis extension while he took a four-year multimedia arts degree. The difference? I didn't fail basic college algebra three times. Now, a lot of you would venture out into deciding that I should be more successful...it's only fair right? Alas, that isn't the case. He took on freelance work when he graduated. He worked when he wanted to work and took home around thrity to sixty grand for every project he did. So, assuming he completed one project per month, he has it good.All of this happened while I was working a call center job to support my tuiton fee and thesis expenses. I was fairly good at it and should have been promoted last January and (hopefully) just today (more promotions were given today and all my former co-workers were sure I'd make higher management by now) as well. But I had to quit because of the whole Christmas bonanza and of course, my brother's January wedding. Now, I have an empty bank account and sore fingers from applying online almost all the time. I don't even turn my laptop off anymore. All the while, Keith stopped working to go study film in the new film school in Cebu (y'know? the cool one...) I even bet he's paying his own way through...just thinking about how much he's saved up already. Now I'm waiting for an engineering job that offers mediocre pay (and that's before taxes are applied) just to fight my way to a better paying job in Singapore.

All I can say is, I envy a lot of people in the world and could never justify why my life sucks. What I wouldn't do to be royalty right now, or even a billionaire's son but we never get to decide anything before we're born right? I regret being bron into my family and regret even more the fact that I had so many chances to be special, to break away from a dead-beet's life but was too stupid to capitalize on all those opportunities. I could have been as successful as Herbert (God knows I have the brains), more popular than Ramon (if I had just eaten the right kinds of foods), more successful than my brother (given the chance).

What do I have to show for all the years I've lived? Nothing, absolutely nothing...I'm a depressive, sexually-confused, penniless, jobless, fat, grey-haired, unsuccessful, self-abusive prick. I wonder how I manage to plaster a smile on my face everytime I need to...

why Zach REALLY disappeared...

Y'all remember Zach (played by Thomas Dekker)? He was Claire's best friend in Heroes. If you're a fan of the series (much like me...) you have no doubt seen the endless online buzz about Zach's character being gay. Well. the executive producer of the show, Bryan Fuller, finally breaks the silence.

Fuller states that Zach's character was originally slated to be gay to showcase the variety that was inherent in the series. What with an African-American gallery manager, a hispanic artist that paints the future, couple of Japanese dudes, a French speaking Haitian, and an Indian geneticist; the show could pass as an advertisement for Benetton!?

The problem was, when the time came for Zach to admit he was gay (in a very "read between the lines" pre-prom speech) Thomas Dekker's management had issues with how playing a gay character would affect his career.

So alas, another one bites the dust...or should I say falls victim to homophobia.

Read the article HERE.

and in the news...

I've decided to copy Towleroad.com's style in reporting. I'll just give bulleted reports in my blog and if you guys are interested, just click on the links to get the meat. I've been a fan of Towleroad's blog for a while now and just wanted to make sure people read the news that was on there. It's really socially relevant. I do take the time to read all posts myself and read all the linked news articles just to make sure I'm educated before I type anything.

• One person injured during Gay Pride in Jerusalem when a bomb exploded. the bomb was planted as a show of protest.Ultra-Orthodox Jews might be behind said explosion.
• Lee Kuan Yew, Singapore's founding leader, said the country should rethink it's view of homosexuality in the advent of genetic research showing it's not a preference but a genetic trait. Currently, Gay Sex in Singapore is considered improper and is punishable by up to two years prison sentence.
• John Mangan, professor of economics at the University of Queensland and Professor Vani Borooah of the University of Ulster are co-authors of a paper, entitled "Love Thy Neighbour: How Much Bigotry Is There In Western Countries?" Paper proves bigotry is not an "Australian" thing, but more of a "Western" thing in general.
• Eliot Spitzer, the State of New York's governor, will hold true to his word (pre-election) and introduce a bill to legalize Gay Marriage in New York.

I hope the writers at Towleroad don't object to my posting.

abortion is terrorism, gay marriage is evil according to the Vatican...

My questions and lack of faith are getting compunded each day I live. This latest news from the Vatican is not exactly "news" and I actually agree with a few things, but the statement doesn't help me at all.

Archbishop Angelo Amato, the Vatican's second-highest
ranking doctrinal official, released a statement last Monday. He forcefully branded
homosexual marriage an evil and denounced abortion and
euthanasia as forms of "terrorism with a human face."

This comes after a volley of comments from Vatican officials including Pope Benedict in response to the prospect of Italy giving more rights to gay people.

In his address to chaplains, Amato even bombs the media comes across as "a perverse film about
evil." He referred to "evils that remain almost invisible"
because the media presented them as "expression of human
progress." He could very well be referring to the continued progress of gay rights around the world.

I agree with Gay Rights activists when they say that the Church is muscling its way into the law making process again. I really believe that the Church should be kept away from any semblance of the government.

Click HERE for the entire article via Reuters.

This only strengthens my resolve: "I can be a Christian without being a Roman Catholic..."

a memoir of sorts...

It's a fact of life. We meet new people, get to know them better, connect on various levels of intimacy, build emotional dependencies, and sadly, most of the time, we end up parting ways. I resigned last December...more or less, four months have passed since then but there are still fleeting moments that I stop and end up missing my friends a whole lot.

Kelogs (Michael) made this little video and uploaded it to YouTube.com and promptly blasted an email through the group to announce it's debut. He laso wasted no time sending me a "nudge" to get my inputs. Simple really, I told him: "It made me cry...". I am fully aware that I was the youngest in the group and probably the most immature becasue of this (except when it comes to talking about Joji of course, that's a whole different story!!!) but I keep on thinking they probably miss me as much as I miss them, right? Truth is, I honestly don't think so. I haven't spoken with the lot of them since I left. Sure there's email and IM...and the occasional call or SMS but it's not the same. Save for my continuing friendship with my beloved Jana of course. She's different, we really connected on so many levels. My family even knows her.

I dunno, maybe I still have a lot of learning to do with regards to losing friends over time. Hey, cut me some slack! I just recently graduated as well...I'm missing my college buds as well. Mich!!! I miss you!

Here's the vid, for those of you who're (<-- LOL) interested:



Thanks Kel! Luvyah!

countdown to ultimate release...

First and foremost, I just realized that I didn't post anyhting for the 22nd...it's so fucking biblical that I couldn't help but berate myself. Me? Rest on a Sunday? What a mind fuck!?

Okaaaay...glad to get that off my chest.

I was super busy buying music online that I almost forgot what today(at least where I'm from) was? I was completing the discographies of my favorite bands respectively. I just bought the Anberlin albums I didn't have. Buying music online doesn't get my rocks off but it gets the job done. I prefer buying the actual cd and getting a whiff of the "new cd smell" when I tear open the wrapper but I'm still grateful for iTunes. I'm in the process of buying legit copies of all tracks I have...a daunting task but one I plan on finishing nonetheless.

Okay...I'm getting sidetracked here...SERIOUSLY.

Today...or at least in a few hours time (12 hours before eastern time hits AM) is the day Heroes hits our TVs (or in my case, my lappy-toppy) again!!! I'm drooling at the prosepct of seeing my favortie people on the boobtube again! I can't wait to get my weekly Heroes fix!

Love Life, Stop AIDS

It's a no-brainer folks. Let's educate ourselves.







...and, as you can see, it's for everyone. AIDS doesn't discriminate, so why should we?

PSP v3.40 update now available

File Description
This first came out in the official PSP website in Korea. Japan rolled it out soon after. Now, for those of you who only download updates from the US site (like me, although I own a Japanese Ceramic White PSP) it's already available. I listed the changes included in the update here. (Thanks QJ.net!)

Game

• Support for PLAYSTATION®Network titles has been expanded.
• Saved data from PlayStation® format software can now be used on both PSP® and PS3™ systems.
• The [Certificate Utility] was deleted. Information that was displayed in [Certificate Utility] can be checked by the following method: Select the icon of the game you want to display information for, press the button, and then select [Information] from the options menu.
• New for 3.30: Support for PLAYSTATION®Network titles has been expanded.*
  

Network

• New for 3.30: Support for thumbnail images of items has been added under [RSS Channel].*
  

Video

• New for 3.30:Support for thumbnail images of videos that are stored in the "VIDEO" folder of Memory Stick Duo™ media has been added.
• New for 3.30:The following types of files can now be played in the "VIDEO" folder. – MPEG-4/H.264 AVC Main Profile (AVC CABAC) video files of the following sizes: 720 X 480, 352 X 480, or 480 X 272. (Depending on the data type, some files cannot be played.)*
  

Settings

• New for 3.30: [Use Wireless Hotspot] has been added as a feature under [Network Settings].
  
  
  

Sanjaya's finally gone!!!

I guess the "aunt Jemeima from the Bronx" look didn't work too well for him this time. That androgynous freak!

Jason Lewis for Aero...

...WEARING ONLY A TOWEL!!!



God! He could sell me anything...can anybody say "uncontrollably" as sexily as he just did? Fucking impossible...

Would Jesus Discriminate?

History has shown us that Christianity was wrong about:

• slavery
• women's rights
• interacial marriage

Could we also be wrong about same-sex relationships?

Find out HERE.

lesson learned: never use the "ketchup" analogy...

FUCKING HILARIOUS!!! ROTFLMAO


Online Videos by Veoh.com

from the movie Ethan Mao...

HOT!!!

Ethan Mao (2005)
Uploaded by stam1_90

The two dudes watching were obviously green with envy...

UW-Madison welcomes first Gay Fraternity...

Looks like Langdon Drive is getting more interesting every second that passes...

Delta Lambda Phi is the first gay fraternity to emerge in the University of Wsconsin Madison campus in fifteen years. Although the campus already has shown strong GLBT support over the years, Rodolfo Alaniz and Jakob Aebly, co-founders, saw the need to forward their cause.

Just so we're clear...Delta Lambda Phi is one of the 28 Delta Lamba fraternities across the USA and one of four established in the Big 10. It's a fraternity for Gay, Bisexual and Progressive men.

bodycount rises in shocking Virginia Tech Massacre...

Dozens have died and even more were left injured as dorm rooms and a classroom was targeted by an armed shooter today at Virginia Tech. ABC has reported 29 confirmed dead...and the count isn't final yet. It actually might still rise.

The Associate Press reports,
"The university reported shootings at opposite sides of the 2,600-acre
campus, beginning at about 7:15 a.m. at West Ambler Johnston, a co-ed
residence hall that houses 895 people, and continuing about two hours
later at Norris Hall, an engineering building. Some but not all the
dead were students. One student was killed in a dorm and the others
were killed in the classroom, Virginia Tech Police Chief W.R. Flinchum."

Reports say the gunman kas been killed but it's still not known if he was shot or if he shot himself.

My condolences to all the affected people...

Arruba accepts gay marriage albeit by a technicality...

Gay marriage is legal in the Netherlands. Arruba, being a former Dutch colony, is still part of the Kingdom of Netherlands ergo...GAY MARRIAGE IS LEGAL IN ARRUBA!

Recently, as ordered by the Dutch Supreme Court, Arruba was told to recognize the same sex marriage of a lesbian couple who moved to the country and wanted to list themselves as a couple in the municipal listings.

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new DList Intern crowned!!!

Yeah! A new podcoast is out for the DList Radio show and Sammie won the coveted internship position! He's really funny and articulate...don't believe me? Read his BLOG.

For instant gratification, click on this LINK to download the episode directly.

new DList radio podcast episode available!

Comedienne Chelsea Peretti co-hosts with sexy-voiced Daniel Nardicio. Guests are: Soce the Elemental Wizard (listen to his song...I was laughing my ass off!), transexual Chanteuse Bianca Leigh, author Cintra Wilson, and burnin' hot gogo boy Sammie!!! Sammie definitely made the episode hot...I mean Daniel's always hot but they were teasing the listeners to no end!!!

I'm really sorry my updates take sooo fuckin' long! I was sooo out last night becasue of the trip and stuff.

scientists discover "Fat Gene"

A gene that contributes to obesity has been discovered. This knowledge could explain why some people put on more weight while living the same lifestyle as other slimer people.

Click on the link above to see the figures produced by the research and how this could help people (me included, of course) suffering from obesity.

F1: Bahrain updates...

Nice to say that Massa of team Scuderia Ferrari captured his fifth career (third, this season) pole position followed by Lewis Hamilton in his McLaren Mercedez. My personal favorite though, has to be Kimi Raikonen edging out that pompous Fernando Alonso for the third spot in the grid!

I hope this is the beginning of Massa's recovery from the ugly performance back in Sepang.

hatecrime bill named after Matthew Shepard

It was announced last Thursday that the new hate crime bill will be named after Matthew Shepard. Supporters are expecting that Congress wil enact a bill that widens the Federal Penalties for crimes done against homosexuals.

Matthew Shepard was a 21 year old victim of a hate crime in Wyoming (1998). He was brutally beaten and then tied to a fence.

Both the Democratic and Republican parties have tried, for nearly a decade, to legislate a hate crime bill. However, staunch supporters are confident that this bill will reach President Bush's hands aided by the more sympathetic Democratic majority as compared to the previous GOP leaders.

The bill is co-sponsored by Sen. Gordon Smith (R/Oregon) and Sen. Edward Kennedy, (D/Massachusetts). Sen. Smith believes that: "...we'll be more successful" after the bill was named. Smith is also confident despite potential opposition from Religious groups, saying: "This act is about the prosecution of crime, not prohibition of
speech," Smith said. "Unless they believe part of their religion is the
practice of violence against others, they should not be affected by
this bill."

***If this bill is approved, it would be a huge step for empowering gay people in America. I believe that Religion shouldn't view this issue through rose-tinted glasses (as it always has) becasue we are talking about basic human rights here. I hope Christians remember how people of our faith were persecuted throughout the years and how we are acting similarly to our detractors now. Lastly, I hope such a law be enacted locally as well. I'm not saying this because Filipino's are exceptionally violent against gays, it's just that gay people aren't given the same amount of respect and importance in this country and I'm sorry to admit that this is due , in LARGE part, to the Church's chokehold on the government.

house in Tennessee vandalized with anti-gay messages

Neal Anthony, from McMinnville, Tennessee, is one of the latest victims of a hate crime. His house was spray painted with a lot of anti-gay slurs including "All gays go to hell" and "Fags deserve to die". His window was also broken after one of the vandals threw a landscaping rock through it.

Anthony is an openly gay man and is in fact living with his partner Michael Duncan.

Anthony has been able to remain brave despite the situation saying: "I guess whoever was doing this thinks they are going to
run me off from this community because I’m gay. That is not going to
happen… this house has been in my family since it was built in 1851.
People out there are ignorant… times have changed. They need to accept
open-mindedness.” The house has been in his family for four generations, the historic residence was originally built by his great-grandfather who was a county judge.

Anthony told WKRN that three weeks ago several people riding
all-terrain vehicles rode by yelling anti-gay epithets and shot 80
rounds of paintballs at the house, breaking windows.

The vandals even had the mettle to go after Anthony's 82-year-old mother who lives
in a nursing home. "You’re mother is hell bound," said one of the
messages.

On a more positive note, investigators have announced that they have possible suspects already and that they will be considering this henous act a hate crime.

***In my opinion, the vandals should be locked-up immediately and we'll see how they enjoy being some hairy inmate bitch in jail! Just my two cents though...

gay marriage bill approved in Connecticut Committee

The bill survived two long hours of debate at Connecticut's Legislative Office Building last Thursday to come out with a 27-15 vote.

The move supports the bill to allow gay and lesbian couples to marry. The bill will no go to the House and then the Senate. It of course, needs to be approved by both houses before it reaches Governor M. Jodi Rell. Problem is, the Governor has been vocal about not supporting Gay Marriages. Although, if you could remember that she signed a bill allowing civil unions after it has passed legislature about two years ago.

In 2005, Connecticut became only the second state to allow civil unions,
which provide same-sex couples with all of the rights and
responsibilities of marriage under state law.
Vermont and New Jersey also allow civil unions and California permits
gays and lesbians to enter into domestic partnerships; Massachusetts is
the only state that permits gay marriage.

bigot Don Imus cut from the air

CBS finally let Don Imus go after the legendary broadcaster's comments about the Rutger's University female basketball team. Last Thursday, CBS Radio made the official announcement announcing that Don Imus has indeed been fired and that his show has been removed from the air.

When interviewed, Don's wife, Deidrde Imus has this to say: "This is all very tragic, there is a lot of healing to do here."

Meanwhile, CBS Chairman and CEO Les Moonves issued the following statement regarding the decision:

"From
the outset, I believe all of us have been deeply upset and revulsed by
the statements that were made on our air about the young women who
represented Rutgers University in the NCAA Women's Basketball
Championship with such class, energy and talent. Those who have spoken
with us the last few days represent people of goodwill from all
segments of our society - all races, economic groups, men and women
alike. In our meetings with concerned groups, there has been much
discussion of the effect language like this has on our young people,
particularly young women of color trying to make their way in this
society. That consideration has weighed most heavily on our minds as we
made our decision, as have the many emails, phone calls and personal
discussions we have had with our colleagues across the CBS Corporation
and our many other constituencies."

On Thursday night, New Jersey Governor Jon S. Corzine hosted a three hour meeting between Imus and the girls from the Rutger's University team. He wanted the girls to have a chance to let him have it and to try to atone for what he did.

CBS's decision comes after MSNBC's Wednesday announcement that it will no longer simulcast Don's nationally syndicated radio program. This also follows the string of companies pulling their ads from the show. These companies include big-wigs like: American Express, American Express, General Motors, Proctor & Gamble, Sprint, Nextel, and Staples. Don Imus stuck it out even after advertisments were being pulled out while he planned to meet with the Rutger's girls.

On the other hand, the Rutgers women's basketball team appeared Thursday on the Oprah Winfrey show to discuss the controversy. "Not
only did he steal our dreams, he hurt our character of Rutgers
University, our state, and all who have been associated," Stringer said
on the show.

All of these, of course happened after Imus referred the Rutger's University women's basketball team as "nappy-headed hos"...

privacy is the catch word! (or lack of...)

I was surfing the web when I came across this site www.justin.tv somewhere along the way. The site features the life of Justin Kan as he goes about daily activities. Sounds normal right? But there's a catch! He wears a camera the entire time. That's right folks! It's like Big Brother without the house.

He wears the digital gear 24/7...as in he never takes it off...be it public or private moments. He even bathes with the damn thing on and in one instance, he had sex with a date with the camera on! Although Mr. Kan had enough tact to turn off the lights. So web viewers just got a blast of black on their screens but the sounds made up for the lack of visuals!

This is a definite guilty pleasure but not for the reasons you pervs think! It throws a wrench on the whole "my life sucks" mindset because now, you could always tell yourself: "This'd be a lot worse if it was cought on camera and broadcasted all over the damn internet!" everytime you goof up.

Here's to breaking down barriers...including PRIVACY! You've got to hand it to him though. The guy's got balls.

sun, song and spirit...

I'm off to Quezon today with the family. We're going to Lucban to climb the "Kamay ni Hesus" and then it's off to a nearby resort for a little aquatic fun! I've already packed a few hours earlier and I made sure to prepare extra stuff because my little cousin who celebrated his birthday yesterday (the 12th) is coming with us!

I packed my sunscreen, my favorite sunnies, and other essentials. Food is covered as well becasue I've already prepared sandwiches for the trip and popped lots of Gatorade in the freezer! I'm seriously stoked to catch some rays and get out of crowded Manila again.

In the meanwhile, I have Mika's "Love Today" looping in iTunes. It matches my mood and it's keeping me more perked up than an eight year old on crack! I also prepared a roadtrip album of sorts. Filling the iPod with indie tunes perfect for a long drive. Staples like The Dandy Warhols, Death Cab for Cutie, Feeder and Kasabian are a given but I threw in a lot more emo bands than I originally planned. The playlist is drowning in Daphny Loves Derby, Anberlin, Copeland, Emery, Finch, Guster, Mae, Stone Sour, The Fray, Snowpatrol, Tonic and I added Dishwalla, Muse, LostProphets and Gin Blossoms for safe measure. Of course I have Mika and the Scissor Sisters ready for drowsy moments pumped with Hard House tracks!

We'll be meeting up with Edissa in Quezon. She's a damn good cook so I have no doubt we'll be well fed!

openly gay teen bashed in Colorado...

Damn! I really do not understand gay bashings! I mean...WHY?! I get it that some people don't like gay people and others simply don't understand but that doesn't give anyone the right to inflict physical harm on another person! Are straight guys afraid of gay men? Why the violence? What's the deal?

Anthony Hergesheimer was assaulted by six fellow students after leaving school last Thursday. Anthony, a 15 year old student in Pueblo, Colorado was followed by his attackers in a car and continued to harass him while on the street calling him anti-gay names. One of the six students finally got off the car and threw an aerosol spray bottle at Anthony fracturing his cheeckbone and breaking his nose.

The victim's mother, Teresa Ornelas should be lauded for supporting her son, saying: "I'm very upset. Yeah, my son is gay. But that shouldn't matter. He should be proud of who he is." She also thinks that the police are not treating the case with the utmost importance adding: "I think it's taking too long. I don't understand why there have been no
arrests. The boys have admitted to assaulting my son. My son has
identified them all. Everyone knows about it, and they're still walking
around free."

The six boys have been temporarily suspended but the school has yet to decide whether to expel them or not. Meanwhile, Anthony is scheduled to have reconstructive surgery done on his face.

It's nice to know though that Anthony has remained positive and brave throughout this hanious act saying: "You shouldn't be afraid to be who you are. Of course there will be
people who won't agree with you. But you shouldn't be scared to be who
you are."

As for me, I honestly think expelling the bigots who did this is a no-brainer! It doesn't matter if the crime is a gay-bashing or otherwise. Viloence should never be tolerated in schools!

Much thanks to Towleroad for keeping these kind of news available on the net.

of all the places...

Would you believe this 30 second commercial was banned...IN SAN FRANCISCO??? Whoa?! Cable execs said that the commercial was too controversial. Isn't San Francisco like the gay mecca of the United States?

I need help!!!

Does anyone have a Demonoid account and an available invite? Could you send one my way please. I really need it this time. Once I've signed-up for a Demonoid account myself, I'll let you use the invite I have any which way you want. I just really need one right now. Hope someone can help me out...

Just reply to this post and I'll contact you immediately. Thanks!

my cousin's birthday on the twelfth!

He's turning three!!!

a good laugh...

It's a no-branier literally...for those of you who enjot watching cartoons/anime that do nothing but try to make you laugh, go ahead and downloiad THIS (Torrent application needed!) file and have at it!

Lucky Star portrays the lives of several
school girls attending a Japanese high school with a very loose humor
tone. The main heroine is Konata Izumi, an athletic and intelligent
girl who, despite these attributes, is not in a sports club, and her
grades remain low. Her laziness at school is due to her love for anime
and video games, and is not interested in much else. The serialization
began with the four main characters in their first year of high school:
Konata Izumi, Kagami Hiiragi, Tsukasa Hiiragi, and Miyuki Takara. As
the story progresses, they move onto their second and third year.

friendly "scare" reminder from MTV...

Gay Kiss ?
Uploaded by YforYerom

Don't let this happen to you. Be ABOVE THE INFLUENCE!

a challenge for those with amazing fortitude...

I dare you...no...I CHALLENGE YOU to watch THIS for two straight hours with the volume set on max!!!

The longest I could muster was an amazing five minutes...

can't wait 'til the bastard drops dead...

God! I just want my father to fucking disappear from this world!

The family just finished eating lunch sans my melodramatic father of course. I cooked honeyed baby back ribs and baked potatoes. I'm actually glad he doesn't eat with us that much, I'm afraid I'll simply get indigestion. He was ranting the whole time my mom, my sister and I were eating. He was telling us how we shouldn't go to Quezon for our planned summer trip. When, he wasn't able to illicit a response with that bullshit, he continued to site a litany of other reasons we shouldn't go.

"The van is not safe for a long trip right now..."

"We'll find ourselves in deep shit if the alternator breaks down..."

"I don't have money right now..." (Who asked you to pay dipshit?)

"We could use the money for the house and food instead..." (not your money bud...)

"We'll be burning gas..." (You're burning my patience you old fart!)

"No one's even helping me with the repairs for the van..." (Huh? what does have got to do with It?)

"I'm so tired of cleaning the parking area..." (obviously we're getting off course here)

"That van has been nothing but a pain in the ass..." (getting farther...)

"I've been spending too much money and time in the upkeep of that vehicle..." (and farther...)

"You're all living a charmed life while I've been working so hard..." (and he lost us.)

AND BESIDES YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PIECE OF SHIT, YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE A JOB! REMEMBER WHEN YOU QUIT ALMOST THREE YEARS AGO BECAUSE YOU HAD TOO MUCH GODAMN PRIDE?!

I really hope my dad drops dead soon. Preferrably in quick fashion, that way we wouldn't have to spend a dime for hospital bills. But then again, there's the coroner's expenses, coffin...heck! I just hope he becomes mute,

Leave it to good'ol dad to ruin a nice lunch.

do you Jaiku?

Click me to see what it's all about...

ch-ch-changes...

I'm currently trying to resucitate my dying (if not long-dead) MySpace page. I have (wait lemme count...) FOUR CONTACTS!!! And everybody knows that Tom is a default contatc right???

Hmmm...I'm also pimping this site to my friends and urging them to get a Multiply account and start digitizing their lifestyle! I mean...in this day and age, it's easier to have close to everything readily available on the net. I won't go to the extent of compromising the security of my identity but I sure am all for sharing my life online.

It's now easier to reach out to more people and connect in a myriad of ways.

DList.com Radio now on iTunes!!!

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cool "internet-only" show

Get hooked on the new 80-segment, Internet-only show "Prom Queen"

emo boys AND girls...

A friend sent me this after the previous post...

the quintessential emo boy formula...

You have got to loooove the easy-to-understand directions...

if Sanjaya wins American Idol...

I will slit my wrists!!!

dirrrty secret...

Okay...I ran across tons of videos on YouTube with emo guys in them. Okay!!! I happen to have this huge interest on the emo haircut! So sue me...but then...emo guys kissing?! Whoa!!!

Watch it...and react...



whew...I don't even know where to begin!

fucking hilarious!

Watch this...milk came out of my nose because of this!



Yeah...THEY ARE SOOOOO NOT GAY!!!

cool new way to procrastinate

I stumbled on a new piece of technology a few minutes ago. It's time to let go of the Windows Media Edition dancers and (in some cases) desktop strippers!

Click on this LINK to see what I'm talking about. It's called Weblin avatar. It puts a new twist to your boring web surfing rituals and gives you the option to socialize while on the fly.

Trust me, after a few minutes of fixing my avatar...I WAS HOOKED!

to all those sell-out poptarts...

Here's a clear message from Ms. Alanis Morissette:



God...I'm sick of seeing over-produced, robot-manufactured, fresh of the mill videos that do everything to cover up the fact that most songs nowadays are trash. Gone are the days of meaningful, poetic, emotion-rich lyrics. Artists are dime a dozen these days and "real talent" is clearly being trampled upon by "humps" in all those nasty videos.